i just want to be ok

just now something had happen . i lost one of my friend . i know i had make a big mistake . i just dont want hurt anyone feelings anymore . but , it turns to be more worst . for now , i dont want bother her for a while . but , i'm sorry for everything ok . i'm totally not a perfect person which can easily make mistake . but i realized my mistakes are not easily to be forgiven . fyi , i will love you no matter what has happened . i just can not stop crying right now . before this i already lost you , and i get you back . but this time mybe i gonna lost you forever . i just wondered if i could live without our friendship .

i hope i can return to the past><

* just ignore my damn spelling .